Friday, 12 May 2017

A Letter To My Younger Self

Hey Emma.

Dear Me. 

It's me.  Well it's you, but me.

Either way!  How are you?  How have you been?  You're about to turn 24 soon and I know you're going to be thinking that turning 24 is ages away but really it is in a few days.  I don't know how old you are at the moment.  I'm just writing to the younger Emma.  The Emma in primary school, high school, college, university, unemployed Emma and the Emma the other day.

You always think how long it's going to be for the school years to finish but believe me, they go by so quickly.  Primary school soon turns into high school and in Grade 8 you are going to stick out like anything with your slicked back pony tail, but hey you'll soon be learning that trying to fit in isn't your thing.  And fast forward to now in 2017 and you have a cool looking piece of paper and also a hat which says you’ve completed a degree in Environmental Design.  You’re classified as an Interior Designer/Architect and you should feel so bloody proud of yourself.  Go give yourself a pat on the back and whip out that cracking hat that miraculously didn’t fall off when you walked across the stage at your graduation ceremony.

Seriously don't bother trying to fit in.  It's tiring and you yourself won't feel any better for it.  You're going to try to fit in while you're in Grade 7 but ah don't waste your energy.  Your swimming achievements will get you points with the sporty crowd but just wait a few weeks and everything will be back to normal.  And as great as you were at dodgeball and run the gauntlet, no one cares.

You’ll make it through college, after that honestly horrible year 11 and you’ll get into university.  It is not going to be easy.  And it’ll be nothing like you ever imagined.  And if you had a dollar who everyone who dissed your degree, asked whether you dealt with cushions and paint samples, said architecture was harder (I could go on), you’d have a bit of money.  You’ll     have the friendly rivalry between the interior and architecture student but you’re on par with each other.  All degrees come with their challenges and just because you’re in a “design” degree, doesn’t make yours any less difficult.
You have grown so much as a person.  You came out of your shell when you were in Ultimate Challenge and then when you were voted onto the Student Leadership Board and somehow also your leadership peers voted you to be the Treasurer.  You really grew in your high school years and in college it would be a whole other story.  Boyfriends and friends, making priorities and hard decisions - college was a huge learning experience.  You’ll learn the hard way what happens when you put relationships as your first priority and please don’t do this again.  Yes they’re important but being a student is also important.

Also if you get dumped, don’t lie to those you love and say it was was a mutual decision instead of telling the truth.  I know it’s embarrassing to admit that you’ve been dumped out of the blue but it’s better to be honest about the situation instead of holding that secret in for months.  Also you’re no less of a person because of your lack of romantic relationships.  If something is going to happen it will happen.  You’re going to wonder what on earth is wrong with you but seriously, not worth your energy!

Friends will come and go.  This has happened all your life and it’s something that doesn’t matter how many times it’ll happen, if still hurts.  I don’t have any answers for this, I know you’re not an asshole but things like this happen.  You are going to meet some amazing people who are going to be your friends for life and there will be bumps and you’ll learn and mature from these, but just hang in there because friends are out there.

You’ll grow up and learn how to say no to people.  It’s hard.  It sucks and can lead to so awkward situations, but when you need to say no, you can say no and you don’t need to feel like a horrible person for saying no.  You learn to not let friends walk all over you.  You can’t always please everyone, and you have a voice which is yours to use.

Do I want to talk about weight?  I might touch on it.  When you think you’re “fat and chubby” my god you are NOT!  You’ll look back and wonder what on earth were you thinking.  I can’t say you ever get out of saying that you’re on the chubby side, because you’re in your 20’s and you’re still having issues with that. 

Exercise also won’t kill you.  Granted it feels like it at the time and you feel sleepy afterwards as opposed to energised but that goes away in a couple of minutes.  Just get off your butt and do something about it instead of going “I’ll do it in 10 minutes.”

Speaking of getting off your butt and doing things.  You are the procrastination Queen.  You are also going to be very good at putting things off and making excuses.  There will be a meme (you’ll find out about those) where Shia LaBouf is forcefully saying “JUST DO IT” and other things along that line.  Seriously.  Just.  Do.  It.  You’re only making things worse for yourself and

There is one other thing that I’d like to mention.  FOMO.  Fear of missing out.  I don’t even know how this situation is going to pan out because it specifically hasn’t happened yet.  Your fave Ed Sheeran is bringing his tour to Australia in 2018 and I know you want to go.  If you can’t go for whatever reason, it’s not the end of the world.  Be thankful there is YouTube.  And be thankful you’ve got the CD so you can listen to it anytime you want.  It’s just a concert at the end of the day.  You were lucky enough to go to one of his tours before so be grateful for that.

You’ve lived a pretty good life.  You have dealt with some tough situations growing up and have had to grow up quite soon but that’s just how life works sometimes.

  • Be thankful for what you have.
  • Love those who are dear and near to you.
  • You don’t have to join and and say “bae” because if you translate it you’re kind of calling someone poop...
  • Continue being kind because it doesn’t cost anything and the world could use some more kindness.
  • Keep being YOU!
  • Also, get ready for the years when you realise chocolate isn’t all that’s it is cracked up to be.  Have fun with that hahahahah

So Emma.  Enjoy your life.  You’re a good human being.  You’ve mistakes in your years but who hasn’t?  You’ve acknowledged them, learnt from them and do everything you can so it won’t happen again.  You’re a good egg.

Also the clari boys just said Happy Birthday to you and did a brilliant rendition of Happy Birthday for you so now you can say some amazing clarinet players have wished you a Happy Birthday!!
Enjoy your 24th year Emma :)

From Emma :) xxx

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